Obstacles everywhere.

How do I keep my ego out of my writing? This process is very important to me, or else, my product and soul do not feel complete. When my ego comes around, I have no words. For it is more important to me to speak truly and honestly, then to grab at some golden apple hanging from a tree. What does it take to channel the infinite? Routine, soul, completeness, strangeness, a breakthrough, a moment of clarity, drugs, a selfless self, an unknown voice speaking in the background, a struggle, a unpure heart, a pure heart, worthiness, ambition, gratitude, love, hope, and the list goes on and on. What does it take? I don’t have eyes in my head to see. When I run, sometimes my body doesn’t want to. When I play basketball, my shots are sometimes way off. When I play chess, sometimes I simply don’t see the endgame. Are they the same or different? I am pushing my mind. Sometimes, I will write unseemly things. I am competing with myself. These are the answers I wish I could tell myself. And why not? Writing is from the soul, a base of power and truth. Where are my feelings in the whirlwind of readiness? My ego rips it all away. In the others, it is okay for my ego to rip me up. For I will return. Is it not the same with writing? I am afraid to write something unauthentic and selfish. This could happen. I could also fail at everything else that I do. The answer is. Keep coming back.