Dark thoughts.

I don’t believe I can ever accept the idea of an infallible and omnipotent “Creator”. In the sense of someone or something that has created humanity for a defined purpose. What purpose could that be, when some are given so much and others so little. It seems that morale goodness is the only answer to the human condition. And yet, what a weak answer it seems. What purpose could the bombing of third world countries serve? What purpose could widespread famine and epidemics serve? Especially, while during these times, there are those which live in high castles. Even if these well-off people are depressed because of their morale ineptitude or immaturity, what if they are not? And further more, so what? What a weak answer to give a starving child; that they are part of God’s plan and their suffering is not for naught. These wealthy air-heads are meant to live like kings and queens while you my child, must suffer without care or compassion. And that you, can be happy if only you adopt morale goodness? What morality is there in the world? This is the question I am really asking here. Even if we can find morality in every place and every situation, the stark condition of humanity’s relationship to fortune strikes me as a more apparent contrast than the path to happiness for one that has been shined upon by the heavens. To find happiness while one dines on lamb, enjoys the company of the opposite sex, and enjoys supreme health and wealth, all undue to the merit of one’s maturity, contribution to the wellness of the world, or one’s toil, seems to me as infinitely easier and incomparable to the path of happiness for one who lives in poverty and squalor, has not good health, and has not found fortune in wealth or in their relationships, and is consequentially insignificant and trodden upon. I will stick to the only known and reliable path of morale goodness yes, all the while knowing my tools for life are weak and comparably insignificant to the power of creation and fortune.

(This was written in response to an excerpt from Cicero’s Discussions at Tusculum)