What the mystics have known for more than a millennium, is that the majority of life experience is processed by the subconscious, and therefore, the majority of life is lived through a subconscious experience. This can be imagined as a very deep pool, which spontaneously allows objects to float to its surface from deep below, with the objects which we find on the surface being what we can term as the conscious experience. And the process in which the objects seem to “spontaneously” appear on the surface, is the subconscious experience. So, the inputs we are receiving from the world at large, are first processed by our subconscious self, or perhaps as the Hindus refer to it, the Self with a capital S. Meaning, the self which is completely intertwined with the fabric of existence, and it is our conscious mind which differentiates this Self from ourself. The ourself referred to here, is the conscious state of existence where our individual self and the Self attempt to harmonize, which is accomplished by increasing ones awareness and acceptance of this Self through listening. In other words, listening is the intersection and harmonization of conscious existence and subconscious existence. This is the place where free will exists as a substrate of our existence. This is where fate is decided and hope resides. This is where despair is borne and love conquers. This is where one may begin to change. For, the act of listening is the way any individual may begin harmonizing with his/her Self and thus, is the beginning of free will.

A large difference I see between the experience of a man and the experience of a woman, at least in the US, is that women can be weak and still receive love from others. In my experience, this does not seem to be true for men.

What Can I Say

What can I say when I’ve no more excuses to give
When I’ve exhausted every avenue of fear
When I have lost connection to the resolve that keeps me so grounded
When life finally forces me to admit;

I don’t know
I don’t know
I don’t know
For there is nothing to know

What can I know when one must always return and say
I don’t know
What can I do when one must always admit
The reason for action to be empty

I cannot explain why I made so many excuses
I cannot give any answer as to what allowed me to stop giving them either
The flow of life to me seems a mystery
For I tried to listen so many times

And I heard curse upon misgiving upon lies
It was not until I listened to the inner voice
That I was able to differentiate between the lies
To find an ounce of resolve

And with this resolve,
I built a bulwark against the tsunami of circumstance
For those I love
For those which I began to sacrifice for

And in that process, I sacrificed even you
My inner voice
My source of courage and resolve
My truth seeking friend

Now, in this moment
I am lost
I have given away everything I have and am standing in a desert
All truth and no meaning

Let us be friends again
You who I betrayed consciously with good intentions
Please, call me Judas, call me Thomas
Anything which allows me to embrace you once again

Show me the path which brings me into the moment
The path which allows me not to speak
The path which allows me not to justify
Instead, it offers action and truth

I wish for new life
A life worth sacrificing for
A life worth dying for

Zazzo

I must remember that all these self help books and books which describe a vision for the future; intellectual, emotional, and spiritual. These are not real life. They are an aid to us in real life and must only be considered when we truly have that door open to us. It is not true that every door is ALWAYS open to us. There are times when life requires real sacrifice and one must remain resolved in the face of unhappiness. Everything good and worth fighting for does not lie on a journey that is pleasant and brings one riches. At times the journey may be heartbreaking, soul-wrenching, and mind-numbing. A very important aspect of this journey is forgiveness. So that we may avoid revenge and feelings of resentment toward our life path. What I truly mean to say is that acceptance is a necessary part of life and a part of life which is unavoidable if we wish to be true to ourselves. At times, sacrifice is ugly and may not even be praiseworthy in terms of glory and respect. What I speak of is personal conviction and a radical alliance to one’s perception of the world. For if we were to believe that all the self help books in the world held the keys to everlasting success and happiness, then our world would be a place where the sun always shines and the rain is always sweet. It is important to remember what we mean by the word challenging or sacrifice. As there are times where challenging means uncomfortable, and this is what most authors offering guidance speak of. And there are times where challenging means, change. Change meaning the path of acceptance in the face of uncompromising uncertainty and heightened fear. Fate is a healthy part of life which we are better off accepting lest we run into a perpetual expectation of beauty and joy in the world, without unhappiness and without true devotion. For any human can tell you, there is beauty in the struggle as well. There is joy in real sacrifice as well. There is strength in acceptance and understanding of that which is greater and more powerful than ourselves. I do not mean to preach for one side or the other if I am to be making sides. As usual in these cases, I mean to draw attention to the balance one must hold in the face of such a fine line which splits the difference between the two paths I have outlined. As usual, serenity must be relied upon as the determinant of such a decision as discerning one’s mentality in the face of growth and an ever changing world. For if I am to grow and adapt, patience and bravery must be dealt with in turn.

I hear the West calling me.

To be alive is to serve others.

– Zazzo

What I believe fate means and therefore what the “internal journey” references, is the path ahead of each human which results in them helping the most amount of people around them. This is a fundamental aspect of each person’s individual journey and life experience. Each person has available to them this path. The twists and turns will look different and will require various characteristics from each person. Although in the end, the result will fundamentally be the same and will also result in the manifestation of happiness in that person’s life as they proceed along this path. It is not results as measured with success and reputation that directly lead to happiness and feelings of fulfillment. It is the internal knowledge that one is following and adhering to what each person is already aware of in the deep recesses of their heart, mind, and soul; that there is such a journey and furthermore that one knows the next step almost at all times. There will be moments of real loss and real confusion. However, in the end, with faith the size of a mustard seed, such a path will open up in every person’s internal world if they choose to seek it. Adherence to the path is what produces happiness, resolve, and an authentic connection to oneself and the world. It will look different for all humans and yet, in the end, we are all working together towards the same goal. The safety, security, and happiness of every human around the world. One love.

Silence

What exists in the world is a figment of reality’s depths
If I only gaze for a moment

What I can perceive is like reflections upon the water

And if I allow my mind to settle down
If I allow quiet entry into my domain
If I can become friends with silence

I can dive head first into the depths

And suddenly, a page is turned
The veil is pulled back and the stage appears

And upon the stage, I find the friend

– Zazzo

Could someone explain to me how post-modernism is different than tribalism?

It seems to me that many children of the young generation in the United States are being taught that they don’t have to suffer…could this possibly be a legitimate way forward?